-NurKhadijah-

2010-11-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

If we stop being who we are,
would we be a better person?

2010-11-19T12:35:00.001+08:00

There's a big chunk of memory from childhood missing from my brain.
It seems to surround a cousin of mine whom passed away as a child.
From what I know, we were close as kids.

But no matter how hard I try,
I have no memory of him.
not at all.

2010-11-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

people tend to feel neglected once in a while.
I've been feeling a wee bit of that.
People just seems too busy for you anymore.

Seems like I'm the one who's always trying to be around people.
and people don't take effort to be around me.

Everybody has somebody to love.
Or to give love to.
Some even has two.
(remember, karma's a really bad bitch)

I don't know who to give my love to.
no one seems to need it anymore.

btw, Harry Potter 7th installment was awesome.

2010-11-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

when a house once used to feel like home.
when a memory once used to be real.
when things treasured now became things stolen.
when we strangers used to be family.

now I believe.
nothing is forever.

2010-11-01T18:34:00.002+08:00

I though it was easy.
it wasn't.

I thought I could do it.
I couldn't.

I thought I could win.
I didn't.

thinking back.
I don't even know how I managed to stay for almost 13 hours.
thinking back.
i should have stayed longer.

I'm happy that people came to support.
it made a tremendous difference.
:)

but ultimately, I'm not proud of myself.
not until I win that car.

2010-10-21T09:11:00.001+08:00

been OT-ing this past week at work like it's nobody's business.
starting to get migraine.
ugh.

Monday.
I'm so gonna take leave.
holiday at sentosa with bff.
I need it.

anyone care to join?

2010-10-17T17:13:00.002+08:00

I stand here.
next to you.
so you won't be lonely.

I listen.
I joke.
I let you pour it out.
so you won't feel alone.

I watch.
I observe.
I don't judge.
so you won't get hurt.

I understand.
I understood.
cos I have no other say.

and when it's time.

I'll take a step back.
I'll move our of the way.
for the next person to fill.
so you'll have privacy.

until when I'm needed again.
I'll just wait for your call.

waiting with a cup of tea at hand.

2010-10-13T09:40:00.003+08:00

there are things you do and things you say that may fail you as a mother.
I don't believe that, even if you're an adult, you can say whatever.

Just because you're an adult, doesn't mean you're right all the time.
NO.
IT DOESNT.
EVEN ADULTS MAKE MISTAKES.

now regretting it?
bit too late aren't we?

whatever happened to the "sit and talk nicely" part?
is shouting and hitting the new trend?

start listening to others and stop listening only to yourself.
cos if you hvnt notice,
the world DOES NOT revolve around you.

2010-10-12T19:07:00.004+08:00

Get Me A Baseball Bat cos I Wanna Fuck Them Neighbours.

and here I thought that the kid 2 doors down from ours, was a bitch.
turns out his grandfather is too.
I'm all for, respect your elders and stuffs.
I ALWAYS respect the elderly.
but hell, this is one old ass I will never respect.

he acts like a kid.
geez. now I know why that kid acts like such a brat.
he learned from the grandfather.
god I'd hate to see what the father is like.

we kept telling putri not to freaking play with that kid.
he ALWAYS teaches her those bad words.
and every now and then she'd run home, crying.
he'd either kick her or punch her.
and hell even my other neighbors even told us that, that family never teaches their kids manners.
they'd say that those kids are bad kids.
I'm like ya, I know.

And for everytime the kid does something out of line,
I'd shout back at him. if I could, I'll fucking slap his fce.
I'm sure the other neighbors now know how much I hate that brat.
with the scoldings and shoutings me and khairiyah gave him everytime.
like I fuck care.

and today.
putri ran home crying saying that the bloody old ass grandpa said smth mean to her.
I figured he had ask putri to not play with his grandson anymore.
yep.
he's THAT childish.

so I ran out the house and screamed back at him.
asking him "what you say!"
he said apparently, putri called him crazy.
in which putri later denies.
then I asked him again what he said.
no sorry.
I didnt ask.
I shouted.
across the hallway.

so anyways he just stood by his door gate.
apparently trying to "stare" me down.
blaming putri for being naughty.
I mean, if u have a problem with what putri says.
come and tell us, we'll scold her.
unlike you.
everytime that brat does something bad,
you pretended like you didnt see anything.
when you actually saw it.
that's how kids usually grow up to be bullies and a criminal eventually.

I shouted back that if wanna say shit, come here and talk.
come, come.
ya bitch.

okay I almost called him a bitch but I didn't.
so, I screamed to putri to go back in the house.
while I still stood outside.
i heard the old geezer mumbling smth to someone in their house.
see.
yet again he has something to say yet no balls to come and say it.

but seriously, he wouldn't even step out of his front door to talk to me.
like dude.
don't be such a kedi can?
you act just like your grandson.
everytime scared, run back into the house.
what are you?
a dog?
you shit all over the house too?
even boy boy behaves better.
I'm ashamed for you.

I'm pissed and I want new neighbours.

2010-10-10T19:26:00.000+08:00

i might forfeit my 100 hours movie marathon.

2010-10-10T13:30:00.001+08:00

My skin hurts.

Its probably burnt.

damn.

The last time i feel like this was... REDANG.

Volleyball + Sentosa + Sun + Water + Girls = FUN + SHOUTING + HOT + TANNED + TIRED

2010-10-10T13:15:00.003+08:00

Dear Ryan Reynolds.

i love you.

you're cute.

you're funny.

and you're definitely hot. like really.

i love you in The Proposal. alot.

but.

watching you in Buried, (see poster below)

i got confused.

cos i love you, but i hate that movie.

okay not hate but dislike more like.

i even friggin fell asleep for a few mins at a time.

im serious here.

you're like probably, THE ONLY ACTOR in that.

and the only set they got is THAT DAMN "COFFIN"

sigh.

im so not telling people to watch this one.

cos i friggin just wasted $8.50.

and i friggin just wasted my time.

life is short you know.

oh wait.

from that movie, you probably got that figured out.

p.s: you're still hot.

proven:

2010-10-10T12:55:00.007+08:00

PHOTOS OF MIDNIGHT PRAWNING!

my prawning shifu.

concentration is key.

tadaaa!

geli geli.

tadaaa!

step on it.

our catch of the day. tadaaa!

skewer and season and cook. tadaaa!

all cook and brown. tadaaa!

group shot. tadaaa!

2010-10-06T10:16:00.002+08:00

So let's see..
there's the;

1)"Dirty Photo" Contest

2)100hours movie marathon by Nescafe Frappé'

3)Subaru Impreza Challenge

4)The Quest Competition

what have I done.

2010-10-04T09:09:00.004+08:00

Last night's impromptu PRAWNING session = fun!
I can't believe I caught my own prawns!
AND I had to hold them.
break their claws.
an un-hook them.
AND THEN SKEWER THEM WITH SATAY STICKS.
:(
sorry prawns.
you taste good though.

Having only 30mins of sleep before going to work = not fun.
that means I've been awake since 4pm last night.
that's a total of 17 hours with no rest.
wow.
and my mood is bad.
and some fucker CS used my fucking table when they OT LAST NIGHT.
that's fine and all.
until I couldn't find 2 of my blue pen.
and now I'm penless.
IM NOT HAPPY.

I need sleep.

btw, I had fun.
lots of it.
know why?
cos life is too short to just tell yourself, "there's still tomorrow"

2010-10-01T13:19:00.005+08:00

this is random.
but I was suddenly reminded about an incident back when I was a kid.
something that happened to me for the first time ever.
and probably the last.

it was when I was about 11years old.
still a kid more innocent than ever.
and me, ibu and my dad went holidayig at KL with another couple friend of theirs.
And I made friends with the daughter.
I forgot her name.

anyways. so one night.
the adults decided to go out.
leaving the kids at the hotel cos the girl I made friends with was sick.
the girls mom said,before leaving, "your brother is nearby in KL too.
he's on the way to look after you girls.
open the door when he comes."

so we chilled in the room.
eating snacks.
when someone knocked our door.
the girl carefully went to check if it was her brother.
and it was so she opened it for him.

and there I was, sitting on the bed.
when he walked in.

and that moment. the moment he entered.
I fell in love.
like, I swear I did.

he walked in the room all smiling (at me?)
laughed a little at the mess.
but i noticed nothing.

my world stopped spinning.
im not being cliché here
im being honest.
I was totally just there on the bed, staring at him.
i felt like the room went all quiet when he came in.
I heard nothing, I saw nothing, just him.

only now would I realize that I fell for him.
back then I thought I was crazy.
I snapped out of it, feeling embarrassed.
I still am embarrassed thinking bout it now.
but of course no one noticed.
just me.

just a little girl at 11.
who instanty fell in love with a teenage boy.

after the KL incident, I didn't see him at all.
until a few years later when I heard he was involved in one certain
fighting incident at Clark Quay when a guy died due to getting stabbed.
The guy was his friend.

I remerber me and mom going to their house to see how he was.
I was so nervous I could pee in my pants.
but when we saw him.
he was different.
he looked depressed.
sad more like.
and distant.

it's like his soul died.
his mom said the incident on seeing his friend stabbed caused him major trauma.
and i felt sad for him.

and then we left the house.
with me. having done or said nothing to him.
except stare, again.

then a couple of years later.
I saw him again!
on TV.
he was on a football team.
The Tampines Rovers.
I was so shocked but I instantly recognized him.
I did!
he look as handsome as ever.
good looking bastard.

and I was glad to see him happy again.
I guess he must have been doing well.
probably have a girlfriend already too.
I'm guess she must be hot.
dammit.

but it don't matter cos I was hoping that maybe a few years from now.
I hope to see him again.
even if he doesn't see me.
just to revive an old memory.
a memory I sometimes forget.
a memory of an old innocent feeling I can never get back.
:)

AND NO THIS IS MOT A FAKE STORY.
IT HAPPENED.
it's true.

2010-09-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

when I dont bother, you ask me why, why do I seems distant.
when I gave it my all cos I care, you don't even notice.
I feel like I've been conned.

"It's so easy being you. No problems. Just chillax only.."

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?

2010-09-29T14:51:00.002+08:00

we really are a crazy random lot.
Popeyes at Changi Airport in the middle of the night..
playing that stupid game in the wee hours..
everyone kissed EVERYONE, EVERYWHERE.

HAHAHAHAHA

...i cant believe it.

2010-09-23T09:34:00.003+08:00

After Hari Raya with them 4is is over (hopefully it goes as I wish it would, Amin.)
there's so many things I wanna plan next.

-Another Holiday!! Bali? Bintan? Redang? Krabi? POSSIBILITIES POSSIBILITIES!
-Bukit Timah expedition. wahahah I wanna conquer that bitch.
-Volleyball with June Chia!
-Chalet. I was hoping to do a chalet, just for the fun of it.

Insya'allah I hope to do all these by 2011!
:)

2010-09-21T11:09:00.003+08:00

planning an event with the 4i-ans can be such a BITCH.
I don't particularly hate it or anything.
it's just so stressful sometimes.

thank god I have support from the girls.
the end results is what makes me feel it's worth it, when people gather at the end of the day..

4 DONTs that'll make me go WHAT THE FUCK:

1) NEVER back out last min. If you don't wanna go, tell me you don't wanna go. Don't give me a half-ass excuse. menyusahkan orang.

2) DON'T tell me what to do if you're not gonna help. Don't say "why never like this, why never like that.." If you wanna help, say so earlier. Don't make me plan something, only to have you change stuff to your liking whenever you want.

3) DO NOT be selfish. It's a group gathering. Cannot just follow your way what.. All for one, one for all la. Once in a while only right?

4) DONT whine, don't complain. If you have to, go sit one corner and bitch it out. Whats done is done.

2010-09-04T04:41:00.005+08:00

unplanned plans are always the best plans.
impromptu-ism is BEST!!

suprisingly, more guys turned up than girls tonight.
a rare occurrence.
and we are so glad to see Moon there too.
shocking as hell but super glad.
:)

I hate myself this morning for not waking up to send off BFF off at the airport.
it's cos of that ZOUK night!!!
I hope they have fun in HK.
come back save! and sooon!
:D

okays. time to plan for raya pulak!!

side note: time to plan revenge on the worse asshole ever.

2010-09-01T22:32:00.003+08:00

bad things happen.
and all good things eventually end.

it's just how you overcome that wall is what matters now.
it's not gonna be easy, only time shall heal.
and I'm just walking by your side as you slowly pick yourself up,
and slowly move on.
cos fuck, that's what friends do.

cos if one day that were to happen to me.
I'd want someone to be there too, ready to catch me when I fall.
with a huge ass air-bag, and a smile on your face.

to those that I heart,
be strong as you have all been for ever so long.
and know that,
it's their loss, not yours.

2010-08-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

if i could kill just one person right now.

it'd be you.
and i'd do it 2 million times more.

why?

cos you're stupid.
and u made a bad decision.
and now, i hate u too.
:D

congrats!
and of course you dont care.
like how u dont care what u did to her.

AWESOME YOU!~
:D

2010-08-21T15:13:00.001+08:00

and we did it!

4i iftar was a success.
but omg i made such a huge mistake.
AND we even had to leave early.

i feel bad.

2010-08-20T01:06:00.002+08:00

Talk about last minute.

sometimes, when you do impromptu things,
it gives you more excitement in life.

:D

omg.
are we really doing this?

2010-08-19T23:15:00.003+08:00

i love Jodi Picoult.
i love her books.
i love reading them.
i love the way they're written.
i love the way you can never put one down after reading it.

CURRENTLY READING:

whoah do i love this one.
its different than the rest.
i hvnt finish it yet though.
imma finish it by tonight.
i only bought it 2 days ago.
HAHA

and i just watched My Sister's Keeper.
I FINALLY WATCHED IT.
and damn, i cant believe i missed watching it in the cinema.

and do you know, i actually love reading.
:)

2010-08-14T15:16:00.002+08:00

I found out that Geylang, during the first week of Ramadhan,
can be rather boring.
That festive feeling aint there yet.

AND. i also found out.
That instead of going to Geylang to see the clothes.. or carpets.. or curtains for Hari Raya.
Girls nowadays, goes there wearing things that would attract attention from other guys.
Like, i swear.
And guys go there to just ogle.
Like, i swear.

Seriously, if u wanna wear THAT, go to a club la.
I malu for u sia.

NEXT WEEKEND.
i want a gathering again.
with the 4is.
i hate the part where we have to set the date cos nobody seems to be free all on the same day.
FRUSTRATION.

but we'll make it through.
as we try every year. <3

2010-08-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

Well.. the world doesnt revolve around you.

Nor does it revolve around me either. Apparently.

nothing revolves around you except yourself.

cos in the end, we are born alone, and we'll die alone.

unless you're some twin or something.

Happy Ramadhan.

2010-08-09T17:40:00.003+08:00

sometimes I think I care too much.
and its usually an effort wasted.

we're just THAT to you huh.
how sad.

I guess imma have to prepare for the past to repeat itself.
just a matter of time.
oh god.
Im probably the only one feeling like this.

they'll never understand.
I'm just gonna stop trying anymore.

2010-08-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

was suppose to play L4D2 today.

but SOMEONE couldnt make it, so the plan was fucked.

hang around east coast Starbucks with Jaz, June & Samsiah.

talked this, talked that, bout this, bout that.

Its never gonna end if you dont make a decision.

Its either you want or you dont.

Dont make people wait, cos its gonna hurt them more.

2010-08-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

Had another simpang moment with them lot.
Its been awhile.
:)

And Nazron Hadi, you die.
Cos you pangseh us.

And Saadah Razali, sorry I didnt text you.
But c'mon.. you should know well enough to self-invite yourself to this thing once you heard bout it from Sher.
not like we'd mind.
:)

Its been great catching up again.
Though.. sometimes, people seem so distant when they're so near..

I stayed over at Nas's that night.
SUPER RANDOM.. and SUPER LAST MIN. HAHA

and fucking hell did we have a night.
just cos of 1 HUGE ASS cockroach, we ran all around the house screaming like little bitches.
THAT FREAKING THING WAS ON THE SOFA I SAT ON.
and IT CAME AFTER US.
so i saved myself by climbing on top of the stove.
while nas ATTEMPTED to climb on the washing machine.
AND SHE FELL OFF.
i had the best laugh of my life.
Forever Remembered.

After that, we cooked.
Cos we're hungry.
and it was FAT-DAY.
(since fasting month coming soon, why not?)

Cooked the spiciest food ever.
LOOK HOW MANY CHILLI PADI WE USED.
yes, we're that stupid.
who cares?
:D

It tasted damn good can..
I had a great time visiting the toilet today.
My ass is on fire now.
yay.
:D

2010-08-05T22:23:00.004+08:00

3rd August 2010

SINGFEST '10!!!!

tickets for 6 pleaseeeee!

all psyched out :D

ARRIVED!

ORIANTHI!

photo with the stage.

awaiting the next act.

Wonder Girls! *nobody nobody but chu~*

ZOMG. Tokio Hotel... LOVE

woohoo!

* swoons*

THE rainbow-ed lot.

KATY PERRY! we were THAT close.

cheeky lil Katy.

all sweaty and stick afterwards..

hungry so ate maggi!

brought to you by my polaroid :)

2010-08-04T02:16:00.002+08:00

SINGFEST WAS FUCKING AWESOME.
I JUMPED, I SCREAMED, I SWEATED.

and..
I SAW HIM! I SAW THEM!

TOKIO HOTEL!!!!!!!!

omg.. and they're so close too...

I swear, i think me and Georg Listing(bassist) made some serious eye contact.
omg.. omg..
:OOOOOOOOO

2010-08-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

Oh god.
I just sometimes wish to run away from here.

I just wish you both would shut up.

2010-08-01T23:39:00.001+08:00

I MIGHT GO!
ZOMG!
WOOOO!

2010-08-01T03:34:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching this.

DATE NIGHT.

i know.....
why am i watching it now you ask?
JUST 'COS.

its a tad boring.
but damn its funny!
all those penises and vagina jokes.

SERIOUSLY!

Quote from the show that made me went "awwwwwww~";

Phil Foster: I'd do it again you know? Us, you, me the kids, all of it. I'd do it again. I'd choose you every time.

I wanna hear that someday. I want those words to be said to me someday.
...dont we all
:)

..yes, im still awake.

2010-08-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

your tongue is like acid.
your words hurt.

sometimes I wonder if you did that on purpose.
i hope not.

but all i can do is swallow it and smile.
cos its not like its not true,
i know what i am.

2010-07-30T02:00:00.002+08:00

Imma stand by you like I've always been.
even if what you did was wrong.
I'll still be here.

As long as you learn and know your mistakes.

Cos even if you dont,
imma still stand by you,
quietly whispering, reminding you,
"can you handle the consequences?"

cos you know i love ya.
and i just wanna make sure that
even if you get burned by the fire you played with,
i wanna be there to put it all out.

2010-07-29T00:30:00.004+08:00

Having to wait for 2 and a half hour for people can be quite challenging.
It challenges the heart, mind and soul.
Not to mention an empty stomach and drowsy eyes.

I was hungry, tired, sleepy and bored.

and it DOES NOT help that my phone cant call/sms out.

Its like being stranded on an island.
Waiting and waiting.
for so damn long.

i now realise.
i hate waiting on people.

i also realised.
though i hate it, i seem to have enough patience to wait a little while longer.
probably cos im nice.

went to watch a movie today.
with Shah and Ju. (<--people who made me wait)
ITS BEEN SO FRIGGIN LONG SINCE I WATCHED ONE.
im outdated..

ZOMG! FINALLY!
NODAME CANTABILE! MUKYAAAAAAA!

yes.. me is happy.
Ju and Shah gave me the immunity of choosing any movie I wanna watch.
and being Ju, she just knew I wanted to watch this.
YAAAAY!
cos i know they felt guilty.
awww...

but this movie, aint just for anyone.
If ya dont know what its about, it'll bore you out.
after probably the 5th concerto.
and after all that piano pieces.

Like ju, when i turned to talk to her only to realise she had fallen asleep.
Half-closed eyes.
Mouth opened.
Sorry ju.
I still love you.

ah wells.
its not all that bad.
Shah got me a "present" cos he felt guilty.
I LIKE IT.
and i didnt have to spend a dime today.
I LIKEEEEEE.

when i get my pay, i'll buy you guys something in exchange okay?
cos i feel guilty everytime people treat me nice.
im not used to it.

2010-07-27T19:25:00.000+08:00

i miss my iphone.
i miss it when it still had a heartbeat.
:(

2010-07-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

What I saw, heard and learnt today, got me interested.
Me and Nas had been planning to take a CERTAIN lesson.
but for now, its still a hush hush thing.
heeeeheee.

its been awhile.

(yes, im still worried that you'd still be angry D: )

2010-07-25T23:36:00.005+08:00

Sher, Ju, Me and Shah slept over at Nas's place last night after Od's nikah.
Cos her mom was at JB and she will be all alone.
we're so.... AWWWWWWWWW..

we watched hindustan that night.

Sher chose this.
she said she wanted to cry the night away.
she ended up falling asleep before the sad part even came up.

ate maggi,chocolates, skittles, half-boiled eggs for dinner.
we all perangai fat that night la.

Ju ended up taking MC from work today,
and all of us ended up waking at noon,
only to start bathing at 4pm+.
WOOHOOO.

and whats for breakfast?
MAGGI,SKITTLES AND CHOCS.
WOOHOOOOOOOOOO!

2010-07-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

24th July 2010.

its the day one of us finally has gotten married.
and its very kecoh!

though not all 4i-ans made it,
i know if it wasnt for their work, NDP rehersals, and problems,
they would have already come to the nikah.
:)

its something we would never have missed.
ever.

Im glad that mom had time to do her makeup+tudung+hair afterwards.
I want the best for Od and Syaf on their day.

and Od looked sooooo pretty!

I wish the best for them, for now till forever.
The best has YET to come.
;)

------------------------------------------------------

on a side note.
I've always hear people telling me empty promises.
Until me myself heard me telling it to others.
Nothing but empty promises..

So I dont know how this time is any different.
I hope its not.

2010-07-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

tiring day.

Was with Huda the whole day today.
WHOLE DAY.
Im sooo happy that it went well for her.
:D

Pics not available yet.
SOON SOON..

now at nas's, OVERNIGHT!!!!!!

;D
im happy today.
its rare.
might not last long though.

2010-07-21T22:50:00.003+08:00

today, putri's school is celebrating Racial Harmony.
so we sent her off to school wearing Buju Kurung.
cuteness~

some of the other kids were wearing cheongsam like sexay sia.

and i asked 2nd sis to take a photo of her at school when she's gonna go and fetch Putri home.
and then, I SAW THIS.

Her supposed "boyfriend".
HAHAHAHAHA
DAMMIT YOU'RE 6! STOP IT EH.

stop putting me in between.
I hate that "tell-him-this-tell-her-that" game.
YOU DO IT.

2010-07-19T14:45:00.003+08:00

Finally. My worst fears came through.
My phone line got cut.
YAAAAAAAAYYY.

HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA LIVE WITHOUT ANY PHONE?
WITHOUT ANY IIIII-PHONE?
FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH!?
HAHAHA KILL ME NOW PLEASE.

imma have to live by Web SMSes and MSNs and FB chats.
I hate this.

i took off day from work today.
cos i slept at 4am.
so naturally i couldnt wake up.
im stupid, i know.
boss asked after i sms her: Why every monday you take off last minute?
im like, SHE'S RIGHT! HAHA SHITTT! thus, i ignore her sms.
its not like i can reply anyways..

its only a day off anyways.
im just some temp. a nobody really.
but im a hardworker ya know.
i OT alot these weeks.
im so good.

P.S: EVERYONE PLEASE CALL ME IF YA WANNA CONTACT ME. CAN STILL RECEIVE INCOMING CALLS AND SMSes. ;)

everyone = people reading this here = practically, none.

2010-07-19T01:40:00.002+08:00

Its 2:03am.
And i aint sleepy.
AND i have work today.
YAY.

2010-07-19T01:06:00.003+08:00

Huda's nikah is this Saturday.
I cant believe she'll be the first among us all.
;D

every single 4i-ans i contacted were super shocked.
they even thought i lied.
HAHA
This kind of thing is no joke.
:)

But im superly happy that they all wanted to try and go to the ceremony.
no matter how busy they may be.
*touched*

i guess this just goes to show that,
no matter how far away we are,
no matter how rarely we all meet up with each other,
we'll always be there for that one moment in each other lives.

For all that had happened in school,
all those stupid childish moments,
Im super happy and proud that im part of them 4i people.
:)

Mucho Love.

2010-07-18T16:51:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, slept at 5.45am. Woke up at 1pm.
Today, slept at 6am. Woke up at 3pm.

AWSOMENESS.
wonder why i cant sleep early these past weekends.

and i heard mother on the phone this morning.
scolding someone, an indian lady she knew.
apparently she accused mother of taking a gold chain from a photoshoot they had.
HOW COULD THEY.
WE MAY NOT HAVE MUCH, BUT WE DONT STEAL YOU BITCH.

2010-07-18T03:15:00.004+08:00

the super random fb chat at 3am yesterday was memorable.
i cant believe i was asked such a question.
-.- like, dude... WHATTTTTTTT!

how was i suppose to answer THAT?
damn.
he'd better not tell the rest of that clan of theirs.
so embarassing can.

ugh.

2010-07-17T20:14:00.003+08:00

"If I had but an hour of love, If that be all that is given me, An hour of love upon this earth, I would give my love to thee."

-an excerpt from The Lovely Bones.
a movie and book worth wasting my tears over.
even if it took me while to actually watch this movie. ;)

AND OMG. how cute is this guy in the show. a real ladies man.
Ray: "Susie Salmon. You truly are beautiful"
*swoons*

2010-07-17T16:28:00.004+08:00

i've decided something.
and it starts now.

2010-07-17T13:57:00.003+08:00

its that feeling you get.
when you thought that this time, it could be different.
this time, its finally my turn.
that this time, im finally gonna be happier.

and you'd think happy thoughts.
you'd smile at the memory of it.
you'd laugh all by yourself.
and yet, you'd tell no one about it.

then..
it all falls apart.
just a moment, can bring u back to reality.

wishing that it should have been you.
wondering why its not.
and then that envious feeling.
you're so lucky!
:)

and you'd thought to yourself.
how could i have thought that?
as if that'd happen to me.
how can i be so selfish.
:)

what an idiot.

im being punished.
because i've been bad.
i know.

but we gotta smile on.
when bad things happen, we smile and walk on.
we probably joke about it too.

because if we dont.
we'll fall apart.
we'd hate ourself.
and then.. we'd die.

2010-07-15T19:09:00.005+08:00

my mood's gotten better.

anyways, here's just a little something that happened back at KL.

we went to the most beautiful places i thought KL never had.

had the most fun with the weirdest of people.

;)

we miss it.

we miss them.

and it hasn't even been a week.

ahhh the epic moment when we saw these things HAHA

@Genting

nas's manly body, and private nipples.

Lunch @ COLMAR. fucking nice place la.

its like we're in some town! but its m'sia!

pretty..

mh just had to pee..

i-city. this place just took my breath away. NICE CAN!

waste of electricity though. :S

damn masonics.

its a friggin japanese house. we pose weird dont we.

the final photo. sadly.

2010-07-14T19:01:00.003+08:00

i am so emotionally drained.

something's wrong with me.

i cant help it.

i hate it.

2010-07-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

KL was a blast.
wished it could have lasted longer.
we always seems to be making new friends everytime we are there.

;D

2010-07-10T04:12:00.000+08:00

Me is here in KL!

Wish u were here sher :(

2010-07-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

Time's moving fast.

The next thing you know, its already been 21years.
The next thing you know, your friends are all happily attached.
The next thing you know, a friend's already engaged.
The next thing you know, you'll be someone's godmother soon ;)

when's my turn for a change?
do i just sit here and let it come?
or am i suppose to change me myself?

im living my life as i please.
im happier that way.
isnt that all that matters?

2010-06-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

Why bother anymore?

2010-05-15T15:50:00.003+08:00

Twice in a week, someone told me I am a good person.

Twice in a week, someone told me it'll happen.

But they dont know.

They dont know how im not deserving.

How im actually not a nice person at all.

Thats why good things dont happen much.

For it only happens to good people.

But for when it does occasionally happen,

for when I can only hope it'll happen

I'll look it in the eye and say,

"Alhamdulillah. Thank You."

2010-05-03T01:20:00.008+08:00

02 May 2010!

Finally, an outing with them people!

And Jaz has got that work pass of hers from work, which can get 4 people into any Singapore attractions, for free.

Ya. I know. WANT right?

Though I found out, June's got to work afternoon shift.

Which means she can only stay till noon.

and her replacement is... Sherlina!

who's a little too free on a weekend!

HAHAH

Stop 1: Discovery Center

We came like about 9am.

And we were probably their first few customers.

And there's practically no one there. Yet.

So we just did whatever we wanted.

HOHO

;)

my cheenah BFF!!

Our Breakfast was PIZZA. super healthy.

Stop 2: Science Center

After June left for work, we met Sher and went to SSC.

Its been years since I went there, but its all still the same.

REALLY.

Stop 3: Drunch (Dinner + Lunch?)

We wanted to go Snow City, but cannot get in free.......

So Sher got us to eat at her dad's hotel (no, he doesnt own it) at Hyatt.

It was High Tea time. and the food was so awesome i could die.

Did i mention we didnt have to pay a cent??

Hafeez the noob was sooooooo excited

that he was practicaly having seizures when he saw the fondue table.

Yes. Thats right.

the plate of a 20plus year old man.

Stop 4: Karaoke @ Orchard Cash Studio.

Then we book a room for karaoke.

Very very sudden!

but it was fun.

We sang. Sher screamed.

and now, my ears are bleeding internally.

all very F-faced. HAHA

Last stop: Helix Bridge

Originally, we were supposed to go ride the Flyer.

But unfortunately, we arrived too late.

dammit.

It closed.

There goes my hope of riding my first ever Singapore Flyer ride.

But the bridge was rather nice. Normal though.

With a great view.

And we walked past the IR.

its very pretty.

Thought the Casino can go in free one.

BUT NOT!

kena pay $100 sia.

tsk tsk.

I'll still be awaitng the day that I can ride that Flyer thingy, at least once in this lifetime.

2010-05-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

What I heard today.

Putri: Kak Ngah (my 2nd youngest sister), adik 3 ke 4 ke 5?

Khairiyah: haaah? uh.. 5 ah.

Putri: *smugly* ha.ha.ha salah. adik 3 la.. Put-3. ha.ha.ha

As in: Putri = Pu-three = Put-3

sooooo clever!

2010-04-24T16:35:00.004+08:00

Before me & putri went to buy food;

Me: Putri nak makan ape? Nak nasi tak?

Putri: Tannak.. nak mello.. (she meant milo)

When me & putri were buying food;

Me: Cik, nasi ayam penyek 2, bungkus..

Putri: Puti tannak ni laa.. nak mello la.. *whines*

Me: Tau la! Ni kak long ngan nenek nak! Jap!

Putri: *silence* (da paisey)

Before me & putri got home;

Me: Nanti makan ngan kak long kay?

Putri: Puti tannak makaaan laa..

Ma: aah.

When I was about to eat;

Me: Putri! Ade timun! Besar seh. Come makan ni. Putri suka kan.

Putri: Puti cakap ape....? Tannak kan?

PFFTTT!! MACAM MAK ORANG SIA PUTUT!!

i'm sorry, you're 6 YEARS OLD RIGHT?!?

HAHA

nice reaction putri.

owned.

2010-04-23T21:52:00.004+08:00

Al-Fatihah to Masruroh Binte Musa.

Bahiyyah's one and only older sister.

i could never imagine this kind of thing happening.

be strong babe.

2010-04-17T13:15:00.006+08:00

10th April 2010: 4i (once a year) Reunites!!

So finally. We reunited. Most of the whole lot.

We went to Nabin's for dinner.

I came late. hhmph.

aiint even my fault.

We sheesha, took photos, talk VERY loudly, laughed even louder.

and we ate. a pack of hungry 4is.

it was scary. the food was gone within seconds.

it was the blink-and-you'll-miss-it moment.

i never got the chicken. i never did....

damn u people.

then we parted ways.

some left together for KARAOKE session.

some went home, too tired i think'.

ah.. i regretted not staying at Nabin's longer.

It was a comfy place.

we could have just stayed and talk.

ah well.

rushing last minute plans...

Then after screaming(literally) like crazy people (literally) at the karaoke,

some parted ways again.

In the end, Me, Naz, Ju & Nas went to look for "breakfast".

The Naz & Nas twins bought shawarma(drools).

Me & Ju ate Mcs.

We ate like pigs, again. (WTH is wrong with us people?)

and had the most sinful desserts in the world.

ZOMG.

and off we went home in the cab.

only had $4 with me.

so thats all i contributed for the cab fare.

Naz was sweet, he paid for the remaining fare, said he didnt mind paying more.

AWWW~~~ ;)

just a photo for someone. HAHA

6th April 2010: TUEEESDAY~

Had a karaoke session @Cash studio bedok with Ju & Hafeez.

we sang for almost, what, 5 hours? FUH!

awesome!

had LOADS of duets with JU.

;DDD

though im always singing the "guy" parts.

hhmph.

it was an all expenses paid trip, THANKS HAFEEZ.

then we ate MCDONALDS.

cos we were starving. seriously.

i didnt eat from noon till the end of the karaoke session, which was like, 1am!

and then, home.

yay.

i wanna karaoke again la.

2010-04-12T21:04:00.001+08:00

4i reunion was awesome.

as always.

Much kecoh-ness.

I swear, we never tone down when we're around each other.

EVER.

I love it though.

2010-04-03T22:08:00.011+08:00

3rdAPRIL2010
Today was random.
Originally, i had plans with Ju.
To go down to Pasir Ris and take a look at some chalets for our Birthday.
We were planning to share one for our 21st.
:D
LOOK OUT FOR INVITES PEOPLE!

I met Sher earlier though.
And we went around This Fashion@ Paya Lebar.
Tried on a few dresses.
Didnt buy one.
Walked out to wait for Ju.
Realised we lost Ju.
Ju called using pay phone. (her hp died on her)
Lost Ju again.
Searched for her in This Fashion.
(its like looking for a cat amongst really tall grasses.)
and she ended up waiting for us outside instead.
BAH!

Met up with Od and Syaf at Downtown East out of randomness.
Rain was heavy.
Yet, we still trudged on.
We spied into other people's chalets.
Looking for a really nice one.
Walked by twice.

Then Syaf mentioned that he could get for us the HomeTeam NS one.
Like, DUH!
Cheaper AND BIGGER.
Time: wasted.
HUH...
i shall check on it later....

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2ndAPRIL2010

There's this dinner event thingy Sher asked me to go with her that happened yesterday.

Its at O'Learys Sports Bar and Grill @ the Flyer.

Its a buffet (not much choice LOL).

And we got a free drinks voucher (coke neh..)

Lots of balloons everywhere.

The event was an okay-okay thing.

A little boring..

Lots of music played by a live band.

Some dumbass games and blackjack..

The prizes are just some food vouchers.

Though the biggest prize is a 3D2N stay at RitzCarlton.

Only can be won through Blackjack la..

NOOBSHIT!

we went out to take photos in the "mysterious" forest below the Flyer.

HAHA

just randomness.

also to satisfy our camwhoring needs.

haissh..

The heels that Sher went out with was KILLING her.

Literally.

So before we went off, we stopped by Charles&Keith to look for shoes.

Browsed.. Browsed..

Too ex..

Went out..

Then we spotted RUBY!

HAHAH CHEAP!

we went in, saw a Black Studded Heels, and..

KACHING! bought!

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AWFUL!

LOOK AT THAT.

WTF.

OUR mother friggin' dropped it, and now, the head broke!

AND she blamed us for just anyhow laying the guitar around the house.

SHE dropped it.

THEN ignored it.

PUSHED it aside with her FOOT.

damn i swear..

sometimes...

AARGHHH!!!

she think its cheap ah?!

shit.

im still pissed about it.

2010-04-02T18:02:00.001+08:00

Do we really mean what we say half the time?

2010-04-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

ZOMG.
just when i missed listening to my awesome music on my PSP.
I saw Takir's status..

he's got damn good deals for a Creative Zen MP4.
(*_*)

4G $75.
8G $95.

HELLO. MY BDAY IS COMING. I DONT MIND AN EARLY PRESENT.
I LOVE U ALL.

2010-03-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

I dont understand your thinking.

I dont know what to do for u anymore.

I feel dejected that you wouldnt tell me stuffs anymore.

Cos then, I cant tell you what I think anymore.

And I cant scold you for your wrong turns.

I cant be stern with you for your mistakes.

I miss doing that.

But i guess, you dont.

I'll let you play with fire.
Do as u deem fit.
Until the day you get burnt,
I'll just sit by and watch you go by.

2010-03-28T22:42:00.006+08:00

what's this?
i go on holiday for once in a while and, BOOM, im forever broke?!

i had 45bucks to spent for the remaining week,
but i gave 25dollars up to help a friend.
read: cos im nice.
(i <3>

i then had 20 bucks.
which the 10 dollars i had to use on ezlink topup.
read: cos its important.

then the remaining 10 dollars,
i gotta use for an event im going with SHER on the 2nd April,
which actually costs 20 dollars.
which then means i have to borrow another 10 dollars from SHER.
read: cos its worth it.

DAMMIT.
and i doubt i can survive transport fees till next weekend
with only 13dollars in my ezlink.

which then means i need to borrow another 10bucks from someone kind enough,
for my fucking ezlink.
no, not from my mom.
read: cos that wont be smart.

and my pay will come only on next weekend.
read: awesome.

AND when pay comes;
gym will deduct.
i will give mom money.
i will pay back the 50 i owe mom too.
i need to set aside 200/month for june bday celebrations.
i need to use money for the 10th outing.
my PSP needs repairing.
my DS needs a card.
jaz wants me to buy her headphones for her bday.
oh. my. fucking. shit.
i. am screwed.
i always am.
my future. is ruined.
i. have. no. life. savings.

WOOHOO!

2010-03-28T15:03:00.001+08:00

I feel like a freaking matchmaker or something.
Just that, they're already matched, I'm just working on the loose patches.

HAHA.
here.. there.. this.. that.. him.. her.. he.. she.. you.. them..

I hope KARMA returns the good behavior as a favour.
;D

2010-03-27T11:53:00.001+08:00

Helping out a friend isnt stupid.
But somehow, i think people would find what i did, a waste of time.

ITS NOT!

Mission Accomplished weezy.

2010-03-20T16:07:00.002+08:00

I'm so broke I could cry.
and my skin is peeling every more (random)

oh.
Finally, they're starting to miss us.
LOL
those "forever missing" 4is.

First Indra, now Nazron.
I'm SO planning a sheesha outing next month la!
cos i'm super broke this month. and i know the others are too.
HAH

over. and out.

2010-03-17T20:48:00.010+08:00

7th - 10th March: REDANG

i swear i thought i was in heaven while i was there.
i couldnt care less what the blazing sun was doing to my skin.
i had so much fun.

we took oh so many photos.
just post these la...
the rest in FB got!
HEH
we took like, umm.., a thousand photos maybe.
accumulated on 4 cameras.
Mine, Ju's , Hafeez's and Wei Siong's HP.

but only a quarter is our, the others is just ju, and the sunrise.
*yawn*

2010-03-17T19:28:00.005+08:00

13th - 15th March : Kuala Lumpur

Me, Ju, Nas Sher!
finally, a getaway together.

it was super fun!
i spent about RM400+ there.
geez.

and didnt even shop much!!
we went to alot of places though.
ate alot of food. (OH NO~)
see alot of things. (PRETTY SIGHTS!)
met a few people. (we lioke HAHA)

thank god we have a reliable friend there to drive us around.
he's so daddy like though. (wanna slep me??! >:[])
and maybe a little sissy. (scared of cats? ketchup???)
LOL

but its been super fun.
super duper.
v(^_^)L

and the moment we touched down to sg, we're missing them already.
aww..

this is our room 5mins after we checked in. LOL kandang KHinzir eh!
just a wee bit of fun time.

okay. beer on table, NOT OURS.

NOT OURS! haha

hiding at KFC after a scary Petaling moment. LOL

lovely (: at sunway!

viking 360!! Ali cried! LMAO!

this is our babysitter. his hands always ready to slap me D:

best place to eat at KL EVER! thanks ALI!

LOOK AT THE VIEW! awesome-ness......

our father, planning the day's ahead.

2010-03-07T12:54:00.002+08:00

I know i'm gonna miss home during the 3days there.
but sometimes I cant help but feeling relief.
relief to go somewhere far away.
just for a little bit.

2010-03-06T21:18:00.003+08:00

Finding Nemo is on t.v now.
Putri is watching.
I'm on the computer.

Suddenly I heard her scream,
"No..!"

I turned, asked her what happened..

She said, looking all sad,

"Fish dier is the dying... *mumbles*"

and.. she's distracted by Nemo.

2010-02-28T16:38:00.002+08:00

she said to wake her up at 8.30 am.
me and nas switched our HP alarms on.

I woke up at 7am in the morning, cos my phone alarm wont shut it.
Disabled it, went back to sleep..
It alarmed again at 7.30am. WTF.
Disabled it, went to sleep.
Then at 8am, again.
I turned over in Nas's bed, and shook Ju up.

Ju : haa...
Me: Ju, keje..
Ju: hmm.. *sleeps*
Me: tch.. *sleeps*

Then i woke up about 8.30am.
Turned to her again..

Me: Ju, keje la.
Ju: ahh.. jap.. *sleeps*
Me: friggin air-con, damn cold, *go living room sleep*

i slept while sitting on the couch, pro right..
then woke up 20 mins later, to wake Ju up.. AGAIN.

Me: Ju, nanti lambat kan..
Ju: *mumbles some shit*
Me: *sleeps*

all this while, Nas is in her mom's room, sleeping.
the fuck is the alarm she set up for then?
Geez...

10am, i heard voices from them in the living room.
i was still half asleep, then nas said, dijah maseh tido??
I woke up.
I fear they might sneakily take a photo of me sleeping, they're sly those two.
It happened the last time..
dammit.

We had.. Maggi Mee Goreng x3 packets + chilli padi + mini cheese hotdog for breakfast.
And milo and tea.
heavy breakfast? LOL
and watched P. Ramlee's Ahmad Albab.
random!

by the time i got home, got back to sleep.
HAHA.
the end.

2010-02-23T20:14:00.003+08:00

I am awaiting MARCH to come.
Every single day.
REDANG with the crazy ones.
KL with the girls.

all within 2 days of each other.
HAHA AWESOMENESS.
finally going REDANG ALAS!
must look like heaven over there..

AND KL.
finally going overseas with NAS and SHER.
HAHAH
happyness....
\(*n*)/

2010-02-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

Oh dear Life, how you never fail to disappoint.

For still feeling like this, I'm a Loser.
hhmph.

right now, all i wish to do is sit somewhere alone, and just stare into space,
and talk to myself in my head.

but no where seems quiet enough.

oh wait, i think they call it emo-ing..

2010-02-14T18:37:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was V-Day.

Never as meaningful for me.

-.-

Ah well, i got a flower though.

Even if they're from my mom,

at least i got some.

THANK YOU.

father used to give us something a few years back.

guess not anymore.

haha.

i woke up that morning with Putri shoving this in my face going:

"Happy Valann- ibu ape ah?"

2010-02-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

I am super jealous that the ex-2i mates had an outing.
I know its all them chinese people.
But still. I wish I was there.

I could have taken photo with SOMPOH!
Him and his retarded face. DAMN IT ALL!

I'm a part of 2i too~

D:

2010-02-05T19:36:00.002+08:00

I got home today and learned that we have a new pet.
5 mini fishes actually.

Guess whose they are?

PUTRI.

of course.

I ask for a cat, mom says NO, you're allergic to the fur.
I ask for a hamster, mom says NO, later they die, you scared.
I ask for a turtle, mom says NO, later they get bigger how?

Putri asks for fishes, *woosh* you got it.

what the hell is this un-fairness.
AND she keep feeding them every 10 mins.
i had to hide the fish food from her, to prevent that damn fishes from being over fed.

its not fair.
just cos you're 5 years old, and act all cute and girly, and people call you princess and all, and people give you stuffs, and more money during Hari Raya.....

I STILL WANT A CAT.

2010-02-01T19:09:00.003+08:00

I'M POSTING. I'M POSTING. SEE!

Sher's 21st just ended about a week ago. Its was LOADS of fun. Saw the old 4i again. Missed them much. Yet, there are others i'm stil missing. Always others missing.

But i had great fun helping Sher out in the mornings.

Carrying stuff with Od and Syaf.

Starting the pit.

Burning the first batch of chickens.

Having the fire go crazy while Syaf puts it out with skills.

LOL

saw SIVA too.

funking unexpected.

he's still the same as ever. RUDE as always.

we laughed, we sang, we ate cake (damn nice), we had fun, we talked bout future holiday, we talked bout turning 21, we walked around East Coast in the friggin morning, we played pool, we shared a tub of ice cream, we camwhored.

but sher.
you were too busy to hang with us.
its abit sad.

its cool though.
i know u've got people to entertain.
but i didnt like that most of it was him.

i know it stressed you out, this whole party thing.
im actualy glad you asked help from us when you're in a tight situation.
helping out a friend feels nice.

But still.
with the birthday thing going well and all.
whats left after?

Friend.
You know how much i dont like him.
I made it well known.
I hate that you'd be talking with hope bout him one day,
to just crash and fall the next.

Me, your friends, i know we nagged at u alot.
You probably hate me for saying it again but, please, stop.
You're hurting yourself.
He's hurting you.

I know its super hard for u.
I mean, i never had what u had but still, i can see how hard u tried.
But it only lasted till he decided to say something sweet, or do something nice.
bullshit.
he's fake.
its all lies.
i know it, and so do u.

babe, i love u.
but i have no right to tell u what to do.
i'll just keep nagging and nagging till u get tired of me.

give yourself a birthday present, and try, again, to let go.
this time, with a little bit of determination.

Much love.

2010-01-11T21:21:00.002+08:00

Right now.
If at this very moment,
someone asks to take back one thing from my past.
I'd answer only one thing.

I'll gladly give up that time that I've regretted.

I didnt know that it's actually affected me that much.
Talking bout it out loud.
Hearing her say it.
It hurts.
I have no right to say this, but it hurts.
Being a friend, it does.
I am the inflictor while she is the inflicted.

I am afraid.
Afraid that my friend still feels that way.
Afraid that no matter what we do or show to her,
she wont believe our feelings.
I feel so sad.
So troubled.

Whats most precious to me are Family & Friends.
Losing either is the worst.
I dont know what to do.

A thousand apologies wont make up for it.
Knowing her, its probably hard to just let it go.
She's probably not as strong. Thats her.
Especially when she depended on us.

Though you say that this time, you've let go a little bit,
I still doubt it.
I still feel stiffened when we're all together.
Its hard to pretend.

Ah.
But, since you've got yourself someone to make you happy,
thats just awesome
:)

at least you've got somewhere else to turn to.
cos i know, we've been the worst disappointments ever.
this 2009.
I'll gladly leave it behind.

Dear 2010.
I hope, that what has happened, will never come back.
cos i cant take another stab of pain in the heart.
Two is already enough.

2009-12-13T17:25:00.001+08:00

Gee~~

What an experience!
:D

not as scary as i thought.
hahahah

2009-12-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

Its like, rubbing salt to my own wound!
Im stupid!
hahaha...
emotionally suicidal.
haissh..

Time please fast forward to THAT TIME!
NOW!

(*v*)

2009-11-25T23:34:00.002+08:00

was out with Sher and Saadah today.
it was nice reminiscing back on our Sec school days.
MAKES ME EVEN MORE EXCITED TO POST THEM OLD PHOTOS!
HELL YEAH.

ahaha.
OMG. i'm gonna get hate mail after i post them.
probably even death threats.
and those Hell notes in my mail too.
i know and yet i still wanna do it.
ahahah.

okay next.
My sis's band (ya, she's in one) is having a gig on the 5th of Dec.
'yall wanna go and support?
please go with me.
pleaseee.
please.
okay :D?

ah next.
i wanna plan a 4i gathering la.
another one.
we all dont meet up often enough D:
i wanna do it on the 25th dec.
CHRISTMAS!
i pray this time, everyone can go.
please.
okay.
go.

2009-11-22T00:59:00.002+08:00

aahh aahh~

I heard from Mel she's leaving Singapore for a month.
to go to Rome Berlin Paris London.
probably for her singing.

yet still.
i feel envious of Mel.
so fun.
going places...

wish i had the chance.

2009-11-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Im in LOVE with Mard's new camera....
<33
its utterly awesome, and DSLR-like.
but damn is it ex.

but LOVES IT!

oh. Simpang didnt happen.
Od totally stood us up.
Like, duh!
doesnt she always...

stupid idiot BAKAAA.

didnt get to relief those days.
stupid!

In the end ate Qiji again.
LOL..

Qiji..
ha. ha..
u idiot Huda. Od. Idiot.

:<

2009-11-20T21:37:00.002+08:00

There's loads of things i've missed doing.
Loads of things we used to do, but no longer did.
I kept thinking back bout those things.

I especially miss our late night hang out at Simpang, just chilling, eating,drinking teh, mcm org tua.. haha
Hope tmr is confirmed!
Relieving old times, lets do it!

2009-11-10T22:27:00.003+08:00

today's heart to heart talk with Nas, was sorta emotional.
I said things that i never even thought about.
It just formed into words as if i've wanted to say it all along.

and i teared in the train.
fuck.
lucky no people then, heng!

i didnt know i was too obvious that she could read me, without me saying it.
she knew how i felt without me even knowing it myself.
its cos, as i said, we were in the same boat.
we felt the same things when we were younger.
we envied, hated, hoped, wanted the same things too.
but it was always stolen, taken away.

i didnt want to see things as it is.
but what Nas said, its true, even i know it.
i just didnt wanna acknowledge it.
and i probably never ever will.

selfish, that i am.
sorry to say.

its so not fair.
i fucking wanted to beat the hell out what u call fair.
if i could, i'd torch it alive.
thinking bout it hurts to the mother fucking core.

great, now i'm a mother fucking emo.
kay, stopping now...

now, im doing what i should.
what i always have been doing.
smile, and pretend.
easiest way to be happy.
:)

best.
i miss that feeling i had once before.
:)

2009-11-08T17:21:00.004+08:00

FINALLY GOT MY PAY!
which means...

number 1: GIVE MOM

of course la.

number 2: PAY OFF MY DEBTS

haha. thats right. i do pay off debts okay!!
and yes, i do owe certain people...
but, now, DEBT FREE! v(>_^)

i've seen my friends and family always having a hard time cos they've got people owing them.
and those people just tried avoid paying off their debts.
idiotic bastards.
owe people, then run off with their money?
make people miserable for what??

number 3: SHOPPING LO

ahaha. its a necessity for females to have a little bit of retail theraphy.
and i usually do it with Nas.
shopping BUDDY.

ah.. but, kinda dangerous ah, shopping with her.
within one day.. i could spend quite a lot..
thats why we only do it once a month!
smart right......

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
so went shopping with Ju, Nas and Mard.
Bugis only.. buy um... *ahem* certain stuff ah.
not fit to let the public know at the moment.

then off we went for Sheesha.
damn funny la the girls, having a go at sheesha.
though they tried it before, its still funny seeing them struggling HAHA.
ah.. funny sia.

then Nas coaxed... no, FORCED ME, into watching a midnight movie.
a HINDUSTAN midnight movie.
a first for me. <-- HAHA ya..
i felt out of place seh haha.
like, not really OUR AREA, if u get what i mean...
LOOOL

hmm but, the movie was nice~
DAMN FUNNY!
titled.. PREM.. something something.. heh

finished around 3am sia.
like, WHAAAT!
but hey, its Nas's first time having soo much freedom.
usually her mom wont allow her to stay out late.
her curfew is usually till 11pm.

then still walk back to bugis and eat MCDONALD BREAKFAST uh!
best! love McBreakfast!
and....we stayed till the first train starts for the morning.

by that time, we're all half dead.
we talked in slurs..
our body limped.
make-up smudged.
hair in tangles.
eyes half-closed.
and drooling.
okay, not drooling.

but as tired as we were, it was FUN.
and i wanna do it again!
maybe.. the hindustan movie too?

oh. and of course we took like, a million photos.
like, duh!
but its all with them.
cant upload yet shit!

2009-11-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

TAKE THAT!

suckaaaaaaa~~~~

2009-10-18T11:30:00.013+08:00

I woke up this morning, suddenly realising I got a tan.
I could see the tan line on my arm..
Dammit.

We went picnicking @ MarinaBarrage yesterday.
Were gonna celebrate Bahiyyah's bday in advance too.
And it was Mard's first time to the barrage!
She's a MarinaBarrage Virgin!
hahah

the sun seems promising.
the only regret was not bringing along a kite.
dammit.

we had fun though!
the photo-taking part was awesome.
we ate, got a free Apple Pie from the group next to us, watched the kites above, talked, sang, rant bout our angers, just, doing silly things.

the sun was glaring really really bright and hot though.
but it was worth it.
:]

the mini-cake for our girl, Bahiyyah.

and shit. the price tag was on the side of the cake.

SPOILER!!!!

MALU!!!

no knife!
feed-the-bday-girl session.

we got this pie from the group sitting next to us.

so nice of them!

LOOKED FRIGGIN CUTE.
oh and by the way. the pie came WITHOUT the hotdog and the chopsticks.

we regret not bringing a tripod. :(I made roti. (damn nice, duh!)

Mard bought fried rice, mee goreng, chicken cutlet. (damn cheap for delicious foods)

Bahiz fried sausage,popcorn chicken. (damn awesome)

Ju brought green tea. Just. 1. bottle. (damn, not enough..)

I woke up frigging early to prepare.

So did bahiz.

Its because of Shanas that we woke up early cos she need to get home by afternoon.

And in the friggin end, she fucking said she cant go. last min.

expected la.

THANKS.

and ju.. i called her 11 times(to wake her up) to no avail.

lucky i called her home ah!

idiot.... -.-

i love the kites that people brought.

so cute!

felt jealous that i didnt have one though....
next time! next time!!

yosh!!

ooh we saw this awesome-ly uber cute one.

its big too. oh then takir came in the afternoon.

he helped us take the photos.

having a cameraman is just awesome for us girls.

hahahah

when u've got them, use them.. haha sorry Bahiyyah!

then, we did the legandary.. JUMPSHOT.

we took around a million times before we got the timing right.

difficult you know!
timing is EVERYTHING.

gotta work with the people around u as well as the photographer..

this was one of the AWESOME ones.
cant even see Mard and Ju's shadow la.
thats how awesome this came out.

this was an okay-okay one.. i love this telletubby-land look.

my fav!

you see this and you go, "Awww....."shots taken on the grass looks damn nice.

oh and we were on the restricted part of the grass.

ahah heck care...

the umbrella was our one and only prop...
sponsored by Bahiz.

we met Saloma too.

The End.

Oh, later on, when me and Ju were on the train home, we saw this "suspicious thing" on board.

like seriously.

a suspicious bag, no, like a sack of something, slacked in the corner..

we freaked.

we dont know whose it was.

the girls in front of us were also aware.

and we didnt know what to do..

so....

what else, we escaped.

HAHAH

we got off at KALLANG.. and took the next train home.

LOOOOL.

felt stupid, but we were scard waaaaat..

nothing happened though..

oh but when we took the next train, someone burst a stink-bomb on us.

someone...farted.

friggin smelly.

bastard that uncle.

yes, its time to think bout others too..

just because.. it'll make them happy.

2009-10-10T13:08:00.003+08:00

waa..
people still freaking read my blog.
haha
and when u read, at least leave me something on my CBox la idiot.
ya YOU JAZ.

you going work soon, hectic life ah!
haha sad la.
cant really do what we usually did,
but work hard!

waaa sounds so sissy.

12th is coming! Putri's birthday!
i though of getting a swensen's icecream cake the cartoon ones..
already got her the present.
haha she's turning FIVE! WOOOOO~

*ahh.. its THAT simple to get tired of trying too hard..*

2009-10-03T21:28:00.002+08:00

i kinda love that game now.
ahaha.
oops.
v(x.x)/
its a secret~~~~

2009-10-03T17:39:00.002+08:00

i just wanna say.. (to no one really)

I TRIED OKAY. REALLY DID. TRIED HARD.
ITS NOT EASY.
BUT PEOPLE CANT SEE.
BUT I'LL KEEP TRYING.
PERHAPS, THIS TIME, PEOPLE WOULD UNDERSTAND.
I WOULD CHANGE.

thanks. goodbye.
(i dont think i feel any better)
ahhh.
i want the raya photos.

2009-10-01T20:15:00.002+08:00

Its the 1st of OCTOBER!
Means...KENNETH has left for UK!
to study! yes.. he can study!

we're suppose to see him off today.
we WANT to see him off.
but he doesnt want us to.
wont even tell me what time his friggin flight is!
i think its cos he might cry and he doesnt want us to see it.
ahh..kenneth.

"He's such a Bitch"- as Charmaine would say.
haha.
he sent me a "Adios, motherfuckers.." msg.
Nice.. so..Kenneth.

The last time we all saw him was the dinner we had with Susan and they all.
And Him, me and Jaz stayed till late playing pool and Lan.
and OMG kenneth suck at pool.
well, so do i but still..
He's suppose to come back in December or something.
That bitch, he'd better remember us till then.